Monday, July 18, 2011

Teenage Years: Perfect Skin, Perfect Hair, and Perfect Body. Young 20s: Thin Hair, Acne, and Obesity. Does anyone else see a problem here?

I've been doing some thinking lately. And I really hate what the universe has done to me. During those awkward years, I was really actually blessed. I never really had a problem with acne, I had pretty long blonde hair, and a tiny little figure. Once I turned 20 years old, whatever higher powers there may be must have decided "You were too blessed, We're going to screw with you". And I'm really unhappy with this.

A few of the articles I have read have said that depression is a symptom of of PCOS. I think its only a symptom because of the evil things that are happening to the bodies of women who have this disease. Think about it. We no longer have a womanly figure, we have hair in places that hair has no business growing on a women, our faces have more bumps than the Rocky Mountains, among other things. The only benefit is the fact that we hardly ever have a period, and that's only a benefit until we decide we want to have children... then we're screwed there too.

I'm really praying to God that I will get some concrete solutions after I go to the doctor in a couple weeks. I don't know how much longer I can keep going on with this disease. I don't think I will ever be able to accept my body the way it is, especially when in the back of my mind, I keep telling myself that it is a result for my love of bread and pasta. And buying my clothes is just getting too hard. I would almost rather join a nudist colony.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

A little update about my life

You all are probably wondering what has been going on in my life lately. Let me begin...

Before I took the break from blogging, you all know I was on the search for a new job. Well, my job had gotten to the point where it was unbearable. Thankfully... I was offered a position at a local jewelry store with a very high reputation in April. It couldn't have come at a better time, because I was seriously to the point where I just couldn't stand to go to work anymore. Its pretty sad to be put under that sort of pressure for the simple reason that your boss is a horrible person. That's all it was, and I'm not ashamed to say it. // So far, I really enjoy my job at the jewelry store. It makes it hard because I know that I need to move on and get a big girl job, but at least I can stand to go to work on a daily basis. And I'm getting paid more, and am able to work full-time and usually some overtime. It helps out A LOT.

So speaking of that big girl job, I graduated with my Associate's in Applied Business Management: Human Resources Management in May. When I chose HR as my major, never did I realize how hard it would be to get a job in the field! In order to get a job as an HR Assistant in my area, I don't even have the experience. Its hard to imagine that, because everyone needs to start somewhere! But then as just another little update, I'm going to start working on my Bachelor's in Accounting this fall. I still want a job in HR, but I'm really hoping this will help.

Alex & I at my Graduation.

I've moved a couple times since before. I have moved in with my infamous boyfriend Alex (I'm sure if you read my blog, you know who he is) and his family. I thank God that they allow me to stay with them until Alex and I can get on our feet. We've started to passively look at houses. The realtor called me today to let me know that she doesn't really have what we're looking for right now, unless we want to pay an arm and a leg (which we obviously cannot afford), but she'll keep an eye out. I've never bought a house before or have been around that process. Does anyone have any information they can provide?

 Oh, and I don't think I ever mentioned that we have a puppy! A pain in the butt, little lab-border collie mix. Hehe.

And last but not least... my health problems. I went to my family doctor a few weeks ago, and we both agreed that something is not right with my body. So, I went to do the pelvic ultrasound, and they found numerous cysts on both of my ovaries. I still need to go get the blood work, because its a matter of getting myself out of bed early, so I can go before work... But I've been unofficially diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I go to an OB doctor August 2nd to discuss this some more. I'm kind of hoping the OB doctor will end up forwarding me onto an Endocrinologist. I guess we'll see how it goes.


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